Hey guys, it’s been a while since I did a proper update post. Mostly just rants and stuff. I really love this song, though I haven’t heard of this soundtrack before.
How do I feel now? I feel… Tired. I feel a tinge of loneliness and sadness.
Its just me I guess. I can feel so lost and I can feel so happy. I’m a whirlpool of emotions.
Sometimes I feel like I’m no good. But then sometimes I feel like I’m on the top of the world. It’s just me I guess. I keep thinking with my feelings. But I guess that would mean that I’m more sensitive right? HAHAHA. I don’t know but when I play my instrument in my emotional state, it really is beautiful.
Well, all of this emoness is probably due to the fact that life wasn’t as good as it used to be. But it isn’t bad either to be honest. And maybe because I feel like progress has been slow the past few days. The stayout used to allow me to practice as hard as I’d like, but now it’s like, I can only play my guitar in camp, and it’s an acoustic one at that. I don’t wanna bring my electric in because it’s so heavy, and it’s expensive.
Recently I’ve been giving my goals the backseat in camp, giving myself more time to watch dramas and all. I started (and am finishing) a series called, Good Morning Call. It’s such a cliche but well-directed drama. I like romances and this filled the bill of a cheesy romance I craved. I’m on my last episode, but if you like romance stories, you should definitely check this drama out because it’s light-hearted and fun.
On to more serious things, I recently sped up the planning for my Japan trip, because it’s coming. ORD is imminent, in about 2 months, and I’m feeling it. It’s slow, but it’s coming. My friend keeps counting the number of working days but I really don’t wanna think about that.
Honestly I just wanna move on with my life already. It feels like time stops whenever I am in camp. I guess that’s how it feels to be a stay-in right? Well, I had it really good…
Anyway, it’s raining now and I’m listening to this soundtrack. I really like it. It gives me a warm feeling. =D
So yeah. This is how I’ve been feeling.
Oh and I left my band. Officially, I will stay with them till April. It’s high time man. I think it’s just that the band has members with different goals and that makes the direction we are going so unclear. On one hand, we have Bronson, who just wants us to be some Kampong band and insists on us doing things for the sake of entertainment which we are awkward at.
And the other, would be the singer and the other guitarist, who really don’t care about the band direction.
And there’s me and Yu Hng, who want to be challenged musically. Who want to grow.
So we aren’t growing anymore because all we are doing is gigging and gigging.
It’s sad, but it has to be done.
I got a new band coming tho! Looking forward to it.
Found a female drummer and I’m gonna meet her in the coming week. And then Yu Hng found a female singer. AWWW YEAH ALL THEM GIRLS~~
So yeah, sad, but excited. I hope this goes well. Enjoy the soundtrack while I head back to practicing and being sad abt life. SEEYA~