1 day to Year 2 Semester 2
Hello guys, I just wanna write a post before I begin a new chapter in my studies. The road is not going to be easy, and I’d like to reaffirm myself in my abilities not just to study, but in everything else that I am going to embark on in this Semester.
For the most part, I have been doing pretty well in school, but I have always neglected relationships with people for grades: it’s a natural tradeoff, since, I’m an introvert, and I tend to prefer more solitary time and I do appreciate having enough sleep even on the worst of days. However, I think in some ways, I should really make some time for the people that matter, i.e. the friends closest to my heart.
Next, I want to reaffirm that I am a very capable and hardworking individual. Whatever I put my mind to, I will excel at. I shouldn’t need to feel fearful or worried when the deadlines and stuff are pressuring me, and I know I will always get through these challenges. And of course, if I fuck up, I fuck up. There’s no big deal. Learn from your mistakes, and move on.
And now I would like to reflect on the last semester, what could’ve been done better, and of course, what I did well.
Last semester I remember I devoted a lot of my time to studies, and I was very focused even though I got tired and pretty burnt out towards the end. However, sometimes, I think I shouldn’t judge my work to the point where I will lose sleep if I don’t go through EVERYTHING like more than thrice. Learn to trust the quality of your work.
Next, START EVERYTHING EARLY. Because you really won’t know what shit will happen down the line, and this applies ESPECIALLY to group projects, because you might feel safer in a group, but ultimately it hinges on starting early and trusting your team to do the same.
On my other endeavours:
I have dropped a lot of things that were not working for me, and I think that that has worked out for the best. Now, I am more free to pursue the things that I love in my free time rather than pursue all of those things half-heartedly like last semester. I spent a lot of time studying, and I think now that I have less commitments, I can finally start recording and composing music as well as studying Japanese proper.
So start early, trust yourself, make time for the things you love and your friends. You’ll be off to a great start before you know it, Kevin.
One last thing. The relationship I had didn’t work out, and I think I was a little too presumptuous. Well, such is life. I’ll move on with these lessons in mind.